As I stare at the blank page of my computer, I am reminded of the sometimes impossible job of filling it with words while expressing myself accurately, using discerning adjectives, and shedding light to find the meaningful out of nothingness. As difficult as it is to fill a blank page, it is also difficult to not attempt it. When I put off my writing, my thoughts and feelings remain bottled up only to erupt in an explosive tumbling of haphazard ideas that don’t seem to connect or even make sense.
So much has been going on in my life right now, and amazingly we have passed the Memorial Day welcome to the start of summer (another new page?). Lately, my emotions have been so contained due to constant motion and action that at this point an unknowing nudge might create an apocalyptic tragedy in my head. Despite my recent inability to express myself succinctly, I never stop listening to music. The latest sounds are healing fountains which keep most of my demons at bay.
A blank page provides another opportunity for a new beginning, a new moment, perhaps even a new moving song to share.
It is not very often in life we have a blank page handed to us. I look back and remember taking clean slates for granted when my family moved every two years while my dad was in the army. It was adventurous, a bit scary, and yet wildly invigorating because I could re-invent myself each time we moved. I was really good at it too. I would think deeply about any new possibilities and build upon them with a multi-layered foundation. Accents, culture, and even climate differences would interplay with my new idea of myself. Starting over was difficult at first, but always paid off with immense growth and many positive benefits. So, why is it so hard for me today?
A blank page.
It is a gift, when life becomes tedious, locked in, or stagnant.
It can be frightening, if it is thrust upon you unwillingly.
A blank page.
What would you do with one?
Today, I am considering not only this page of my blog which needs filling, but also the new blank page that the universe has thrown at me. All that I know, all that I am, changed dramatically this spring. I am quietly trying to sit with it, learn from it and explore the unknown possibilities which may unfold in my future.
Should I hold on to all I know? Or should I learn to let it go and move on with space and time?
I am learning to let go. I vow to not cling solely to the past and what I have always known. It is time for me to tackle the uncertainty of my blank page. It just takes a single stroke, a tiny dot, or maybe even the act of just being ready to put pen to paper to begin to change my empty page. Simply stating it right here, right now, helps me to recognize my conviction.
Letting go and moving forward can be incredibly difficult, but also insanely rewarding. I think I can’t ignore my own future any more. It has taken me way too long to understand. I am subtly nudged by a young girl who left all she has ever known to venture to NYC … not only is it bold and brave, but reminds us all how dreams can become reality with a bit of a push out of the cozy nest we have always known. Her experience helps me to examine my own blank page…I am convinced right now is my time.
Amazingly, this song popped in my emails as I was thinking about the massive changes in my life. What lovely serendipity!
Wild Nothing-Letting Go
I want to be happier now
I want to be more than closed
Surreal, the way you made me out
The way you crashed me down…”
Wild Nothing is the project of Los Angeles based Jack Tatum.
New songs/albums from Wild Nothing seem to pop up when my life is undergoing important shifts. Nocturne (album from 2012) was an album I played over and over, due to the soothing vocals and definitive dream pop swagger. The song, “Paradise” came on the radio the other day and we paused to listen in nostalgic remembrance. Only two years ago, Wild Nothing released Life of Pause, contrasting earlier releases, it showed growth and change. As I anticipate the new album, Indigo via Captured Tracks, I welcome what seems to be the shade of a happy return to his earlier style. With Tatum’s relocation to Los Angeles, perhaps this album embraces his own change and growth.
The first track released, “Letting Go”, has shimmering synths and poppy beats that express so much and totally resonates. It reminds me of the roots of Jack Tatum’s earlier works, yet it encompasses a fresh lean into today. Tatum describes the new album…
“I wanted it to sound like a classic studio record, as close as I could get it there. It just boils down to me wanting to fit into some larger narrative, musically, in terms of these artists I love,” says Tatum. “I think about how my music will age. Ideas of ‘timeless’ are going to be different—so if Indigo is not timeless then it’s at least ‘out of time.’”
“Letting Go” is a promising beginning for the album to be released on August 31st. I am already sold and can’t wait to hear more. Atlanta is the second stop on Wild Nothing’s extensive fall tour. Make your plans!
Wild Nothing Tour Dates:
Tue. Oct. 16 – Carrboro, NC @ Cat’s Cradle
Wed. Oct. 17 – Atlanta, GA @ Terminal West
Thu. Oct. 18 – Birmingham, AL @ Saturn
Fri. Oct. 19 – New Orleans, LA @ Gasa Gasa
Sat. Oct. 20 – Houston, TX @ White Oak Music Hall
Sun. Oct. 21 – Austin, TX @ Mohawk
Tue. Oct. 23 – Santa Fe, NM @ Meow Wolf
Wed. Oct. 24 – Phoenix, AZ @ Crescent Ballroom
Thu. Oct. 25 – Santa Ana, CA @ Observatory
Fri. Oct. 26 – Los Angeles, CA @ The Regent Theater
Sat. Oct. 27 – San Francisco, CA @ The Independent
Tue. Oct. 30 – Portland, OR @ Revolution Hall
Wed. Oct. 31 – Vancouver, BC @ Imperial Vancouver
Thu. Nov. 1 – Seattle, WA @ Neumos
Fri. Nov. 2 – Boise, ID @ Neurolux
Sat. Nov. 3 – Salt Lake City, UT @ Urban Lounge
Sun. Nov. 4 – Denver, CO @ Bluebird Theater
Tue. Nov. 6 – Omaha, NE @ The Slowdown
Wed. Nov. 7 – Minneapolis, MN @ Cedar Cultural Center
Thu. Nov. 8 – Madison, WI @ Majestic Theatre
Fri. Nov. 9 – Chicago, IL @ Thalia Hall
Sat. Nov. 10 – Detroit, MI @ El Club
Mon. Nov. 12 – Toronto, ON @ Opera House
Tue. Nov. 13 – Montreal, QC @ Corona Theatre
Wed. Nov. 14 – Boston, MA @ Royale Nightclub
Fri. Nov. 16 – Brooklyn, NY @ Brooklyn Steel
Sat. Nov. 17 – Philadelphia, PA @ Underground Arts
Sun. Nov. 18 – Washington, DC @ 9:30 Club
Learn more..Wild Nothing
We all have something important we need to fill out on our blank pages. What is most important to you, what makes your life sing and restart your heart? I am still seeking, but even planning the journey is an important first step in self-discovery and understanding.
It might be a bit bumpy, but won’t you ride along with me?